but I have been out in it and I met today's goals. Go me!
I know what I want. Clear-eyed and clear-headed in a way that it's been so long since I have been. I detest the wishy-washy and even if I sound a little...cauterized I think that I am really onto something here.
You are all so far away and I miss walks and Liberty Park and writing group and my family, my sisters by blood and choice but I feel like I'm in a kind of retreat. Every day is full and also, really wide-open and filled with solitude.